I was watching Ray Liotta on David Letterman last night and he was talking about meeting his birth parents (he was adopted). It went fine, but not as well as he had hoped. I've been asked many times why I don't want to meet my birth parents. Most people say they wouldn't be able to stand not knowing - I don't know if I could stand knowing. I've grown up with a good life and great parents - I just think that searching would open Pandora's box. You can't just say, "Oops! This didn't work out, can we just forget about it?" I guess I'd rather not know than find out something terrible or worse. Maybe when I have kids I'll feel differently. I am excited that when we finally do, that I will know someone else with my same genetics. Weird as that may seem, but right now, I have to repeat "I'm adopted" every time I'm at the doctor's and they ask about family history. They still ask me, "so you don't know your history?". NO. Sorry, I don't. I have some information from the time I was born, but my birth parents were 19 and my birth grandparents were 40. Not much shows up by then. Sorry. I just wish they could stamp - ADOPTED on my file and get it over with. Even if they check my family history, they say, so you're adopted? Do you know your history? I understand they have to make sure, but still. NO. I don't!

On a different note, I've been feeling pretty crummy (no pun intended!) about my weight lately. I know I'm fat, but I didn't think I was getting THAT fat. Pictures I've seen of me lately have looked more like this, but with more in the boob area:

Okay, all jokes aside, I really do feel crappy. My clothes aren't fitting, I can't stand looking at pictures of me. I want to do something about it, but I'm too lazy. I JUST WISH I'D GET OFF MY LAZY ASS AND DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT! But then, while I'm wishing, I'll wish that it will all melt away and I won't have to get off my lazy ass.

Okay, enough whining. I'll leave you with a funny from work yesterday. I have to do surveys for every new bus and truck that we sell. I contacted a school yesterday and was going through the usual questions, when the customer said he would have rathered have his lettering on the bus done in paint. I told him that we usually use vinyl because of the cost and it makes it easier when you want to take it off. He said that their school had gone to a volleyball tournament and some kids had peeled off the "L's" on their beltline so it read _______ Pub ic Schools! Oops! He said that wouldn't have happened with paint! I tried not to laugh and told him that we would send him some L's as soon as possible!!